The good, the bad, and the awkward.
| The good: I have narrowed (or expanded, depending on when you talked to me last) my PhD list. The likely schools are now: University of Wisconsin (Madison), Massachusetts Amherst, University of Illinois (Urbana-Champaign), Univ. of Illinois (Chicago), University of Washington (Seattle), Arizona State (Tempe), and St. Louis University (Missouri). Talking to the senior Anglo-Saxonist today was a very heartening experience. He seems to like me and think that I'll do well as a scholar, despite never having had me as a student or seen my writing. He also mentioned that he's hoping I'll stay at OSU for my doctorate, which made me go all fuzzy in side. The bad: TEACHING. God. I'm just not good at it. The end. The awkward: speaking in class. I just always say things wrong and make myself look like an ass. I'm so very jealous of those people who left their awkward phases behind with puberty. I'm the new-born foal of the classroom. |
posted by Sarah at 6:47 PM
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post a commentI totally identify with the bad and the awkward. I said something incredibly dense last night - even the undergrads rolled their eyes...
oh well.
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But new-born foals are lovely! I'm sure it's not as bad as you think.
At least this professor is an Americanist, so I never have to worry about encountering her at a Medieval conference. If I do, I'll just pull the "look, over there!" routine and run away.
All the best of luck with it! I'm sure you'll have several offers to choose from, and nerves never show as much as you think they do. Anyway, those non-awkward people often come across as arrogant.